Welcome – to the Morning Light and Universal Spirit!
I am greeted this morning by a brilliant goldfinch on the top perch of the tree right across the way outside my window. This visit is a wonderful gift to start my day.
Dear Guides, what a full and powerful day I had yesterday; I cannot thank you enough for how you have helped me deal with my fears. You have guided me to recognize and accept my fears, to then address them, and, yes, even directly challenge them. I have witnessed that it has been my own fearful thoughts by which I have imprisoned myself; that by moving directly into the situation I fear, I see the truth, I gain a more accurate perspective, and I can puzzle-solve solutions and simply practice and gain the experience to become more comfortable.
Dear Guides – You have helped me change my life!
Sunday, as I reflected on my kayak outings for the day, I acknowledged that I was still uncomfortable with rescue. I had my old lizard thoughts around those fears – You should be ashamed, what’s wrong with you, you’re a failure, you’re not good enough. Instead of listening, I had a different realization – I needed to practice more; even though I absolutely knew that meant doing this thing that was a big, growing fear in my mind – purposely rolling my kayak in open water.
So, on Monday, I shared my discomfort, concerns, and desire for practice with my ODS Lead, Matt, and we made the plan to go out yesterday morning and do just that.
Yes, I was full of fear. We talked about the techniques, and then got on the water, and Matt demonstrated the self-rescue so I could see it. Then, we talked a little more…because I was stalling. Finally, all that was left was for me to just do it.
I floundered a bit in exiting the kayak the first time, but found myself pretty comfortable and capable of getting myself back in the kayak. We talked some more, and Matt suggested that I should actually slow down when I was in the kayak underwater; take the time to get my bearings and see that I was okay. This practice brought space and awareness right into the place I feared, and I learned there was nothing to fear. I was okay.
A Prompt for Today:
In The Joy Diet, Martha Beck advocates taking a risk a day, “doing at least one frightening thing that contributes to the fulfillment of your desires.” When we let our fearful thoughts stop us, we can never reach our desires.
Changes in my life have been super-charged ever since I faced my fear and started sharing these Sunrise Pages.
The practice of risking every day shows us that we are capable of doing the things we fear, and claiming our most precious desires.
What small risk will you take today?
Expanding my Life with Love and Freedom, Dear Guides, rather than seeing it shrink with more and more fear. Thank You!
P.S. Matt and I were treated to the sight of an immature bald flying along the opposite riverbank and down toward the dam, as we prepped for our water rescue adventure!
And, Sleep Scale 3/5 for last night. I slept well, just not long enough.
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